Never Ending Stream Of Fear

And it continues.

I was wondering today about grammar and spelling and things like that. I rarely read what I've typed down here before I post it up, and I don't know how I go with spelling and things like that. I saw the word whose today, and I thought to myself, "Robb, you haven't spelled that word out for a long time. It's been so long that you've probably been using the wrong who's and whose." Is there another one too? I don't know.

I think that I generally go okay though. Sometimes I get a bit carried away with commas, but that could be because I like run-on sentences, but I'm afraid of semi colons and the like. Lists and things like that scare me too. I have a book somewhere at home here called Style Guide. It was a reference book from when I was going to be an editor for 6 weeks back in 2002. Or was it 2003? Either way, it didn't happen.

So I'm talking about this boring bullshit, wasting time. I'm pretty annoyed with myself at the moment. I'm letting myself down, I'm letting Ria down, but I can't seem to stop. It's frustrating. I know what the right option is, but I'm cutting my nose off to spite my face. I've got to stop. I think that my Dad is doing the same thing as well. Just treading water. Neither sinking nor floating. I need to start moving forward again. How's that for mixing meanings and metaphors? Whatever.

I finished reading The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night. It was very enjoyable. It certainly didn't finish the way that I thought that it would after reading the first chapter. I also finished reading Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse. It was good, but I think that the message it was trying to preach is one that I'm pretty familiar with. I could be wrong though and might have missed the entire point of the book, that wouldn't surprise me. That's what happens when you take 5 months to read a book, putting it down for weeks at a time.

So basically I'm being a dick at the moment and wasting time and avoiding things. The only real plus to this is that I'm able to read a fair bit.

Did you know that Justin Hawkins has left the Darkness? He went to rehab and in there realised that he wouldn't be able to be in the band and be sober. Oh well.